Within my college career thus far, I have learned that staying financially sound is very important. I have also learned that it is very hard. Tuition continues to rise, and gas has never been cheap. We also have to find some way to feed ourselves. Some of us pay our own phone bills. This is a ton to think about. On top of all this, we are doing schoolwork, and (hopefully) preparing for finals.
I have been thinking about what my future could possibly hold. What kind of job I might have, and since my financial situation is so tight, what kind of job I could start trying to secure. To state it bluntly, I had doubted God’s faithfulness in providing for me. It was not an open doubt, but just by worrying about such things stated something about the trust that I really had.
At one moment, while I was thinking about my future, I began to question why I was questioning. I have no doubt that God is the one who triggered that thought. Why was I worrying at all? It is so sad that it took me this long to ask this question, and that it took this long for me to finally tell God how I was feeling. After telling God why I was worrying (like He didn’t already know), I sat back to listen.
The only thing I could think about from that point on was how God had constantly been providing for me. I did not have to pay for my car. I do not have to pay for school. There is an amazing family that cooks lunch for me every week. Why would God not continue to provide for me?
Jesus even told His disciples not to worry. After He tells His disciples that they cannot serve two masters, He says this, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about you body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than cloths? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” (Matthew 6:25-27)
I realized that by worrying, I was serving something other than God. If I am worried about my future here on Earth, I am not focused on the here and now of working for our Father regardless of what my future holds. I essence, I was serving a five-year plan. As I previously stated, God reminded me of only a few things that He had provided for me. Why would I think that God would not be faithful to do the same in the future? Is God not constant?
I am not quite sure that this means we need to have a “Don’t sweat it” attitude. With all of this, Jesus gave His disciples one command in verse 33, “But seek first His kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”
Just as Jesus stated that it is impossible for a man to serve two masters (worry and seek first the kingdom), He says that we are to seek the kingdom and all of these things will be given to us. The cure for worry is to focus on our relationship with God. Will we still be concerned with the future? Well, yes. Instead of worrying about what that future will be like, we have hope in the God of that future to provide our needs.
So, we do not need to worry about money, ministry, food, clothing, drink, or our score on the upcoming finals. If we are serving God wholeheartedly in everything that we do, all of these things will come. Focus on God in the here and now. If we continue to do that, then one day the future will become the here and now and we will still be focused on God who is providing for us in the present, and He always will be as long as we are seeking first His kingdom.